In Exile, by Holy Ramen

In Exile

by Holy Ramen

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1.	Sanctuary 03:52	lyrics	buy track
Turn around and don't look back They won't miss you, I tell myself that Life isn't a fairytale No one knows what lies beyond the trail Paint a picture you want to see But it's always too far to reach The ending I can never tell Spinning on an abandoned carousel Standing still throughout all the seasons I'm out of touch but it's for a reason Hiding in my sanctuary Away from the world I'm so lonely but I like being alone You can call me but I never pick up the phone Hiding in my sanctuary I know it ain't easy for the ones who love me Run away and hide somewhere safe I'm not strong enough for this hate The world is a cruel cruel place And I have lost all faith I crave for that human touch But emotions they get me rough I'm a shell of who I used to be Heart soul hollow and empty My anxiety keeps me up at night Small seeds grow into parasites So caught up in the thrill of taking flight You forgot the risk of falling The value of life is now tied to cash Strung by numbers till we turn to ash Nightmares disguised as dreams Torn apart right at the seams So misunderstood like Socrates So misunderstood like Joan of Arc Tied to these stakes but I'm too dazed right now to care about my fate The messages have stopped coming in I'm now just a distant memory Erased from the world, now no one can ever find me Someday maybe the mystery will be solved Like Earhart, Ambrose, and H. Holt Carry my intentions through the wind calling This is my final bidding Standing still throughout all the seasons I'm out of touch but it's for a reason Hiding in my sanctuary Away from the world I'm so lonely but I like being alone You can call me but I never pick up the phone Hiding in my sanctuary I know it ain't easy for the ones who love me Yeah yeah yeah Yeah yeah yeah I'm in my sanctuary I'm in my sanctuary Standing still throughout all the seasons I'm out of touch but it's for a reason Hiding in my sanctuary Away from the world I'm so lonely but I like being alone You can call me but I never pick up the phone Hiding in my sanctuary I know it ain't easy for the ones who love me (I'm in my sanctuary)
2.	Red 04:28	lyrics	buy track
On a somber fall day The leaves quietly float away The eerie calm Is just a warning for what's to come The sky is falling down But we're still chasing for the crown The pride in our tribe Blinds us from disguises Of our true enemy You could see them in your dreams But truths are hard to believe Might as well live in a conspiracy Bombs away The shadows will fade Into ashes of those forgotten I bleed red You bleed red We all bleed red We all bleed red I bleed red You bleed red We all bleed red But that's already been said That's already been said And the seasons change The world turns unfazed All of our sufferings and pain Can be summarized on a page Problems come and go Don't let that consume your soul So why can't we put down our guns Why do we always gotta fight Gotta fight We gotta fight We gotta fight I bleed red You bleed red We all bleed red We all bleed red I bleed red You bleed red We all bleed red But that's already been said That's already been said
3.	3am thoughts 03:42	lyrics	buy track
Shit I'm on cloud nine again My feet so light flying high I'm so elated Fuck the world I'm getting faded These laws and norms are overrated Work till you stress and get frustrated All that you know is simulated Never without a drink in my hand I ain't tryna make conversation No use now sticking to a plan Life is always changing directions Everything is just a point of view You're delusional if you think you know the truth 3am thoughts Got me tied up in a knot Sleep walking on the lot To somewhere I forgot I kinda wanna live I kinda wanna die Too indecisive can't make up my mind 3am thoughts Keep me frozen in the spot Wondering when I'll fall Once and for all Who gave you permission to live in my head Take the eviction notice and never come back again I don't wanna dish out and pay these bills so Imma loop around before you reload Take a shot from behind I got no ego Head to Taco Bell and order a burrito When that midnight hunger strikes I'm all gassed up stumbling about Like where the hell am I (Where the hell am I) You counting sheeps I'm counting ducks You gotta live life not giving a fuck These wisdom come with age But with age now it's too late (I'm getting older) Calm down I'm just messing around My mind's full of strange noises and sounds Think I got injected with the universe Always making something new with the fairy dust 3am thoughts Got me tied up in a knot Sleep walking on the lot To somewhere I forgot (Where am I) I kinda wanna live I kinda wanna die Too indecisive can't make up my mind 3am thoughts Keep me frozen in the spot Wondering when I'll fall Once and for all Who gave you permission to live in my head Take the eviction notice and never come back again The world don't care about your problems They got their own to worry about I used to long for sympathy Till I found out you were all just like me Fucked in the head Can't tell what's right and what's left Think I need some therapy But my soul's now way beyond your reach Wiping my glasses clean Now it's clear I'm in a false reality Get drawn out by Groening Maybe that'll show me my destiny Used to hate being alone Now I'm married to it My friends probably think I'm dead Cause I keep on ghosting them (Oops) But I'm sorry I Just can't handle the stress of who I am Tryna find a reason to keep on breathing Dive head first into the ocean Maybe I'll find comfort Under the crushing pressure Get these thoughts out my head Get these thoughts out my head (Get out, get out) And will you still love me When I finally find peace
4.	I'm Not Living 02:25	lyrics	buy track
I keep chasing the money to fill the void Hoping to buy my way to joy But it won't compensate For my battered mental state I'm running after these fake dreams That I convinced myself it's my destiny But it won't satisfy me Won't bring me any kind of peace Day by day it's all the same Put in the work but nothing changes Time pass by but I don't age Been stuck in the same place Tryna escape from all the noise But I'm surrounded 360 You always selling me something You always selling me something Go to work and I become the voices Gotta capture you 360 I'm always selling you something I'm always selling you something What's our relationship but just another brand deal Plaster up your name till the disconnect becomes real I keep chasing the money to fill the void Hoping to buy my way to joy But it won't compensate For my battered mental state I'm running after these fake dreams That I convinced myself it's my destiny But it won't satisfy me Won't bring me any kind of peace Tryna sell you the lifestyle to cope with the fact that You don't have free will Stop being in denial Racking up clout but what you gon do with that Can't use it on your death bed wishing that You gave more of a shit of what you want And less of a shit of what they need Utopia ain't such a fantasy If we weren't so fucking greedy But who am I to talk What the fuck do I know Just waiting for that damn ticking bomb to explode I keep chasing the money to fill the void Hoping to buy my way to joy But it won't compensate For my battered mental state I'm running after these fake dreams That I convinced myself it's my destiny But it won't satisfy me Won't bring me any kind of peace
5.	Disappear 04:26	lyrics	buy track
The rackets in my head Be driving me mad 240 down the highway Just doing a dash The force's compelling Sucking away my cash What you think about that What you think about that I keep search for a higher power but nothing comes my way I'm the hero I'm the villain in this game I play Happy birthday Soon it's your dooms day Don't wanna be a prey So Imma grind away Dancing around doing ballet Your words giving me a stomach-ache Circoviridae Pardon my naivete I don't wanna face Rather run away I just wanna I just wanna I just wanna Fucking disappear I just wanna I just wanna I just wanna Disappear Meticulously spending calculating Stacking bills till I'm fantasizing Crashing down from the aggravating truth That you'll never find your footing Tripping over shoestrings They got you upside down But you still think you got the upswing Isn't that berating Isn't it debilitating The devil's knocking on my door But it's only 6am (Shit man it's too early) I tell him to come back later Would you do me a kind favour What you do what you say is not the same Like Pythagoras I am self-proclaimed Am I a genius or just insane Motivated and driven by the pain Flailing about acting erratic You're such a little fanatic Carrying around a semi-automatic Never thought life would be so traumatic Don't be so irrational Why'd you kill her I don't know Oh I'm so sensational In exile I just wanna I just wanna I just wanna Fucking disappear I just wanna I just wanna I just wanna Disappear What a letdown the world is these days Broken promises no longer face If you want something done right do it yourself Ain't nobody else giving you their wealth I'm my own goddamn woman Self-made as hell (yes I am) I'm my own goddamn woman And I'm feeling unwell I just wanna I just wanna I just wanna Fucking disappear I just wanna I just wanna I just wanna Disappear The world is on fire and I'm caught in the midst of it What the fuck is my luck there ain't nothing left to fix Standing on opposite sides Born enemies till we die Never becoming the dignified These tears streaming down my face are just a side effect of my maniac episode It's quite an overload Self-imposed disciplinal Might overdose on fentanyl It's about time that you should know You should let 'em go You should let 'em go I'm an addict I'm addicted To the salvation of the conflicted Shaped by martyrs We think we're smarter Just to fall back into the same charter Hypocrite Affectionate Philanthropic Narcissist It's so intricate, it's so delicate Why not destroy it for the hell of it I just wanna I just wanna I just wanna Fucking disappear I just wanna I just wanna I just wanna Disappear I'm not evil just misunderstood Always turn bad but I'm tryna do good Use to wanna make it to Hollywood Now I'm just tryna make a livelihood I hear preaches of peace, but I never see Just more lies to appease unrelenting pleas Every living day is a raging war Every living day is a raging war I keep searching for a higher power But nothing comes my way I'm the hero I'm the villain in this fucking sick game I play If you want something done right do it yourself I'm my own goddamn woman And I am here